It feels early. I have been awake since 5.30, and don’t want to be. There’s something nice about having to wake up early if you are getting up to go somewhere – perhaps in the car, trying to beat the traffic, or to go to catch a train or a plane. Everything seems calm, quiet and fresh. Closing doors on cars seems unusually noisy (perhaps I should not slam them!), voices seem to carry further and even footsteps seem amplified. Perhaps this is because there is not so much background noise, so we are more aware of them.
But I don’t want to be awake now (did I mention that?). For some reason my internal alarm clock went off when I did not set it and now I am awake (almost). I will attribute any spelling miskates to being bleary-eyed, not having my contact lenses in, and being too tired to be bothered to check the text. (However that last one was intended for comedy effect.)
So when I am lying awake at 5.30 in the morning I have three options: lie there wishing I was asleep again; get up and do the things my brain has started thinking about; or go back to sleep. Since the last one seems beyond my abilities today I have gone for option B. I have sent the emails that I had remembered needed sending, I have realised that because I am away for a couple of days I ought to write something on my blog to let people know that service may be intermittent this week (do you see how subtly I did that?) and I have decided that in a minute I am going to have a relaxing bath to start the week.
But before I leave you to go and relax among the bubbles, I want to reflect again on the first paragraph. What is the background noise that makes it more difficult for me to hear God? Not just physical noise, although that makes a difference, but busyness and business, distractions and attractions? I try to make regular space to stop and listen to God (writing blog entries is one of those) but also need to be able to filter out the background noise to appreciate more fully what he is saying. I sometimes think that God only speaks in a whisper, but the reality is that he is often speaking at full volume but there’s too much else going on for me to hear him.
And is it any surprise that some passages about Jesus praying start with ‘Early in the morning…”?
So far today, I am doing all right. I have not gossiped, lost my temper, been greedy, grumpy, nasty, selfish, or self indulgent. I have not whined, cursed, or eaten too much. I have not taken what is not mine, and I have been very content with what I have.